Precious Days

This time last week, I had spent the entire day crying.

On Wednesday last week I was offered another P/T job in addition to the one I already have. I had the weekend to think about it.

Although the extra money is always nice, and I know I would have loved the job...I just couldn't face the decision of having to work full time. I didn't know how I was going to make the decision...I didn't know what God was telling me. I didn't apply for this job. I am totally happy and content with what I have. I wasn't even thinking of working full time - EVER! But I get into work Wednesday morning, didn't even get a chance to sit down at my desk before I was offered this job! Was God telling me I needed this?

In asking for help in the decision process, all I got was "it's up to you honey", and "good for you", "well, money is always a good thing"...is it really? Yah, so, things are tight...always have been. BUT I am the happiest I have EVER been. I have a great relationship with my family, and my house is FULL of laughter...constant laughter...to me, that's more important then the big house, fancy cars, and "up-to-date" clothing.

I didn't sleep much last Wednesday night.

On the Thursday, during abi's nap, I held her and bawled. She is going to start school NEXT YEAR...I only have one more year at home with her. It was in this moment that I decided "no". I'm just not ready for it...I've chosen my child and my family above money...I hope it doesn't come to kick me in the ass!!

D:)