We SURVIVED...okay, so MOM survived!!

Warning: LONG BLOG due to babbling idiot called mommy!!

So, today was abi's first day at school. She started Kindergarten today!!!! She was SUPER excited and couldn't wait to begin her day...mommy wasn't sure how she felt!

The bus came and picked her up right on the dot, and as soon as my little girl sat down in the bus, and all I could see were her eyes...I started to tear up. The bus pulled away and I literally fell into Billy's arms and bawled. I tried hard not too, honest...I don't enjoy the fact that I am "that mom", but when you've only got one (and possibly only ever will have one), these moments are hard!

I quickly hopped into the car and tried to follow the bus...but I lost the bus!!! Can you believe it?

I met up with abi at her school and saw her come off the bus with the HUGEST smile on her face.

Abi: "MOMMY, did you see me? are you proud of me? I went on the bus ALL BY MYSELF without you! Are you proud?"

Mommy: "I am SOOOO proud of you abi!"

Abi: "and you know what? I wasn't even scared"

I said my good-byes to her outside of her classroom and left.

Alcoholics turn to alcohol in the times that are hard to face and where they think they couldn't possibly get through...I, turn to Starbucks.

I didn't go to my usual place (as it's located at the other end of the city by my work), but I have to say THANK YOU to the Pembina Starbucks! AMAZING ladies there! My usual Starbucks is great too...I think they have to hire people who are able to deal with lunatic moms!! I walk in trying desperately to hide the fact that I've been crying (you just can't cover up the bright red nose). When I order my coffee and am paying, the cashier made the mistake of asking me how I was. I looked up and tried to get the words out, but cried! (I'm embarrassed just thinking about it now). Her mouth dropped and she apologized to me! I then apologized to her and explained that I am a mom to an only child who I just happened to JUST say good-bye to as she starts her VERY first day at school.

The cashier then starts to tear up and tell me that she went through it last year, except she her child on a bus, and she followed the bus to her school. I smiled and told her that I was doing the same thing, except I LOST THE BUS!! We chatted about our girls and then I mentioned about how abi looked so little on the bus and how all I could see were her eyes over the seat, and the girl making my coffee started to cry!

By the time I left, the three of us had cried, hugged and they had done their best in assuring me that it gets easier.

I know, I know...only me would do that sort of thing! Like I've said before, when I am upset, I am a blabbering fool!

I should have gone into work today, but I didn't. Instead, I spent the day worried sick over abi. I didn't even get my nap in as all I could do was think about what she was doing right that very minute.

4pm took forever to arrive!

Momma Peggy, Poppa Dean and Poppa Bill were all at the house to welcome abi home from her first day at school.

I tell you, I have never been more relieved and more happy then I was when I saw her come down the stairs from the bus!!

She of course had a fabulous day and can't wait to go back!

"Mommy, I get TWO RECESSES!!"

I leave you with the video Billy took with our camera when she came home. You can also follow the below link to view more photos: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13985&l=cc915&id=594211836