Goodnight Angel, Sweet Dreams

I'm usually not at a loss for words, and the way I cope with this life is to write. I write a lot. It helps put things into perspective for me.

Tonight, I have no words. I have nothing in me to write.

I've lost my baby. He's gone to heaven to be with Jesus.

I'm numb. empty. tired. sad. confused and angry.

And so grateful. Grateful for the child I do have. The one who really puts sunshine in every day for me. Today was a hard day for the entire family, yet she still brought laughter to the house, and laughter to the hearts.

Thank you abi. Thank you for your UNCONDITIONAL love, for your smile, for your sweetness. You are my sunshine, always and forever. Today is a day that you won't forget, and it's a day that will help shape who you become. I'm sorry that you've had to feel this, I'm sorry for the pain and the hurt.

To my baby:

Goodnight my angel. Tonight you sleep in the arms of Jesus. Safe from harm. Far from hurt.
Tonight and tomorrow and the rest of forever, you will be our heavenly angel. We won't forget you, we won't stop loving you. We will think of you often and wonder what could have been. In our lives for such a short time, never being held, never being kissed or hugged or tucked into bed goodnight, but forever in our hearts.

Goodnight my angel. Tonight you sleep in the arms of Jesus, tomorrow you sleep on the clouds.